I can't believe I just thought that.
~Breathe Deep
I always thought of myself as a good person.
~Breathe Deep
But I didn't do anything
~Breathe Deep
I guess I'm okay, but still...
~I need to sleep

Music

I love making music. I want to be able to make a living on it so I never have to grow up, but...each day while the walls pass by me in school I know this happening is becoming less and less likely. Even if it doesn't and I grow up my music will always be here to make me feel like a kid again.

I like coffee and I like tea

How do we love? I think that the answer is different for everybody, but I think I finally figured my answer. I might sound conceited, but I can love because I love myself. Everything about me makes me happy; my girlfriend, my family, my friends, my music, my grades. I love everything in my life, but I know that me loving myself so much is why I can love everything else. I know I sound like I only care about myself, but it's not true. Loving myself is an enabler. Finally knowing, finally being happy with myself, finally not caring what anyone thinks of me is the biggest release I've ever felt. I find love everything now, and I feel myself getting worked up over so little. So next time I'm at a coffee shop I'd be happy with whatever the waitress brings because I like coffee and I like tea.

Unbearable

If everything was as hard as this
There wouldn't be time to just sit and breathe.
Your favorite things in life will always make your life
unbearable at some point

Christmas

Alright to start off I'm new to the whole blogging culture and the whole experience so I'm just gonna stat with a subject that has been on my mind today. On the way to school this morning I was listening to a Christmas song by the Killers in collaboration with Elton John. It tells the nativity story through a different perspective. All religions know the basis, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger." Luke 2:1-14. The story highlights the hardships Mary faced traveling to Bethlehem and giving birth in a manger, but it doesn't real look at the story from Joseph's perspective. Here is a man engaged to be married, his life is happy and he is content. Suddenly his fiance comes to him with the news that an angel came to her and now she's pregnant. What would you think? Would you have faith in your wife and in your god? I don't know if I'd be able to. Honestly, my first impression would be that she cheated on me, that my fiance is a whore and I never want to see her again. It took amazing courage to do what he did. Under all of the judgment of his friends and neighbors. As the song goes "When she took her stand
Did she hold your hand
Will your faith stand still or run away"
Mary would not have been able to make this trek without him, while many Christians praise the virgin Mary and the Christ child I give praise to father Joseph for doing what many men (including me) wouldn't be able to do.
Just like the chorus
"Better you than me, better you than me, better you than me Joseph"


Check out the song here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7G1EgUvHHQ